okay. here i am again. emoing again. Jon. dont say anything. =( I'm kinda sad cause the show i'm watching is very touching. I long for something like that, something so true and innocent like that. also, i have lots to worry about. I just started worrying for my back once again. Cause I realised and found out that my back will have cracking sound when I lift my leg. Injured my back a few months ago and experienced pain when I walk but I thought it was okay already. I thought it was healed. Until recently, when my hips start to hurt a little and there's sound from my back...I can even feel it. =( I was very angry and sad about this. Cause I came to a conclusion that I may not be able to do sports. I can forget about training and trying so hard to get into school's tennis team. Everything i worked so hard for..just to get into tennis. And this is all i get? life's unfair isnt it. Okay. Maybe it is not that serious? Which i hope. I dont know why, there was just this sudden feeling of panic that came over me just now. I didnt know it can be that serious..so i guess i need to go for x ray soon...and hopefully assure me that i am fine.

not gonna sleep tonight. ******* *** much. plane at 0805am tmr. gosh. homeworks to rush. damn.

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