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Hey yo people, I'm Sien. 16th October's my special day. haha I LOVE MUSIC, and my freaking nice friends <3 I love him :)





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Friday, February 27, 2009
UNFAIR

Why is life so unfair?
People who don't need attention will get all the attention from others while the some people who wants just a little attention don't get any. why why why? I have many questions to ask, with no answers to them. Is there anyone I can talk to? My problems and stuff? Frankly, there are many things that i fear. seriously...and if you know about them, i think you'll just laugh at me.I may look crazy and cheerful on the outside, but I do have my sad and emotional side too...which not many will realise.



How do I let you go?

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I saw a RAINBOW today! I was wondering if I'll be able to see one today and I saw one! It's beautiful.So happy.

Okay...after school, I was contemplating if i should take tennis or volleyball as my cca. I really couldnt make up my mind and I became really sad.. in the end, I didnt bother to change my choice of cca in aspire..so i guess i'll be in tennis? geez..OMG. I hope there's someone who can help me with my PT. or I can literally just die on the spot. =( HELPPPPPPP!!!!! and i dislike gp. =( 2.4km tmr..

and guess what?! I am late for school today! My freaking clock, dont know why, became 20 mins slow...so when I taught it was 640am, it was already 7am plus. wth. eeeek!!!oh..bought my tennis shoes yesterday and I kinda regret buying it. especially the colour. it's freaaakinnn girly. can't stand it.Grrr..I'll reach school at a later time next mon, so people, don't miss me..hee..(thick skinned person here, =DDD)




I just saw the real you and I don't like it.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009
my inner feelings.

I bet you don't realise that I actually do feel inferior when I'm with you guys.
There's an insecurity you'll never know inside of me. =(

Sunday, February 22, 2009

to think that caring for someone too much may be so wrong. I just didnt want you to make the wrong choice. but after thinking for some time, I guess it's right that you make your own choice, and do whatever you like. I won't stop you from doing anything anymore. I'm sorry for stopping you the other time.

Friday, February 20, 2009

okay. School's quite tiring and it's only the first week...OH NO. help. Well, the week's been tiring but I look forward to going to school everyday cause the people in school really brightens up my day. =) I LOVE SCHOOL. geez. Hmm. i think i need to prepare myself mentally and physically fit for the tough tennis training soon. PT for two days is already making my body ache. haha. see how weak i am? =/ argh....parents-teacher meeting session next week.oh no..and then for the interview on...1st or 2nd mar. hope the interview will go smoothly. =DD

I find people in srjc quite friendly. hee. at least for the time being, most of the people I know are really friendly and they get my freaking lame joke. muahaha. ( good job SIEN) oh oh. In school, everytime somebody ask for my name, I gotta repeat it for a few times before they can get it right.....or never..haha. ( eg. vanessa, no offence yo! ) In any case, I love school and of course my lovely class. =D


I'll try my best to make it work okay?
but if it still doesn't, then let us just let it go...
shall we?

Monday, February 16, 2009

I feel like going for a drink =(
someone ask me out eh?


oh NO!!!!!! I think I've got a *****!!!!!!!!!!!



SHIT!!


OMG!! I need to start studying. seriously....but my engine's not warmed up yet...and i need a study group, to study with me in school...and a kind soul to help monitor me. I know I am old enough and should depend on my own...but I really need help with this. I can't believe Irwin is so bloody guai. He studies everyday and does his homework!!! I should learn to be like him man...But good for him...so disciplined =D not easy to keep it up...

Okay...frankly, I really don't think I can make it into tennis. My hope is all dashed. SADED. especially when he was so straightforward. Right into my face... just because I can't lock my wrist!!! BUT, trial is not over yet...so i guess i do still stand a chance...don't I? maybe not...sigh..
okay..if i can't get into volleyball or tennis....I dont know what to do. =(

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Outing with D and J was kinda fun. Met bestie at plaza sing. Helped her sell flowers. And I managed to sell many in such a short time. haha. so efficient. Emmanual will hire me next year. ( provided I have no date ) heeehee. It was kinda fun. going up to people, asking them whether they want flowers or not. If only Stiffy was there, then I can ask Jason to buy flowers for her. haha but I didnt see them there. so ya..After that, I headed off to City link with D and J. and I finally bought my new shoes!!! YAY! =D. next week will be A6 shoes buying time. muahahha. =D
Anyway, asked bro for advise and he told me tennis. hmmm...






I am so confused with everything that's going on. I don't know if i can keep it up anymore. Kinda tired. Someone help me? I hope my past won't come back to haunt me in my new life.

I think, in life, what's yours, will be yours.
What's not will never be yours, no matter how hard you try.

Saturday, February 14, 2009
I'VE DONE 59 OUT OF THE 132 STUPID THINGS

tagged by charzy. but i prefer not to write it in facebook. Dont want some people to read it. hee.

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol
SO FAR: 3

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
( ) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 5

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 8

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 10

Level 6
(X) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 11

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
( ) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 13

Level 8
( ) Had A Tea Party
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (offroading)
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 15

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO FAR: 18

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 20

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 24

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 26

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 26

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 29

Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
( ) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 30

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
( ) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 34

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 37

Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere
SO FAR: 39

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
( ) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 40

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 41

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn the Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top
SO FAR: 44

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
( ) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 45

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
( ) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been in a tree house.
(x) Been scared to watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 46

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Than 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 47

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken [老鹰抓小鸡!]
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 50

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 51

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(x)Tried to hurt yourself
SO FAR: 55

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 56

Level 31
(x) Been Used
( ) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 59

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
SO FAR: 59

it's less than half. =D yay to myself. haha.


OMG! you know what? CETUS WON !!! WOOHOO! damn happy. =D
gotta go get ready now. meeting up with D and J later.

what a sad valentine's day.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009
memories.




Okay...so tomorrow will be the big day of orientation. The highlight of orientation: performances based on themes given to each house and beauty peagent. CETUS WILL DO GREAT TOMORROW and hopefully we will emerge as the champion house. =D WE CAN DO IT FELLOW CETUS PEOPLE!!! =DDD.

Today's orientation was fun. Rehearsals for some of us and interhouse games. Okay...the talks were quite....you know... haha. as usual. Oh CCA recruitment day today. Signed up for tennis and volleyball. Went for Tennis trials, and hopefully I can get in. Haha. It rained quite heavily and since I didnt bring my umbrella, stayed in school. Played squash, met Denyse and Stef ( cetus ogs =D ) so we talked/joked/crapped and cheered for SR football team. Woohoo. SR WON. versus dunman high dsa people. 3-0. yay! Okay, jogged for a short 4oom before telling D and S scary stories (more like to scare them). HEE. and.....gotcha! haha. they fell for my story and screamed! Told come of the footballers too. Okay, guys do not scream. But when they are shocked, they jump/run away/ have a really stunned expression look on their face. Which is funny. haha. OH! We pranked the guys by offing the toilet lights when they were bathing. MUAHAHAHAHA. well, the switch is outside the toilet...so oh well. hee. Met Cuthbert on the way home. Kinda weird cause he got on the bus...see each other..(quite awkard ) then I said HI. LOL. funny. but he's friendly. so it's okay. haha.


CETUS ROCKS. TOMORROW'S THE BIG DAY AND WE'RE GONNA DO GREAT!!!
GOOOOOOOO CETUS!!!!!!!

Monday, February 9, 2009

I guess some things do happen for a reason. I ended up in SR and I'm loving it. I'm really glad I'm now in SR. Although it may not be a top school, I am enjoying my life in SR. Woohoo. SR ROCKS. CETUS ROCKS! Love all the OGLS. Cool and really nice people. =DD Meeting nice new people in SR. I'm loving every moment and looking forward to school. =DDDD


♥I LOVE CETUS!♥
♥CETUS ROCKS!! ♥
Woohoo!!!!


I don't like it when someone say something yet don't mean it.
I really really hate it.

Anyway, went out with bff aka "sis" today. Had so much fun. Chatted and joked and crapped with her. Her ant joke is so funny. Later her bf came and I kept disturbing both of them. Haha. But at night, my mood kinda changed. As usual. Wonder why. Well, thanks for the great day bff. Love you to the bits. hee. BUT I AM NOT LES!



I think inside of me, the scar is still there and it's not going to heal soon. Unless a that 'miracle' happens. I will still miss the past and thinking about it really makes me sad.


Sunday, February 8, 2009

Went for eye check up the other day and I got a shock of my life. After asking me a few questions, the optician said I would be blind when I reach 27. WTH!! I don't want to be blind. EVER! Scares me man... Okay. so from now on, I shall not sleep with my contact lens anymore. FYI, I've slept with my contacts for 5 days straight before and Thank god I didn't go blind cause the optician said people who sleep with their contacts can go blind. It depends whether their lucky or not. So, all along I've been really lucky uh. I shall take better care of my eyes, not wear contacts for so long, and throw my contacts after 1 month. Not more than 1 month...so...yeah. Hee =D

Hmm..school's not bad so far. Academic orientation was alright...except for chemistry lecture. It was ... no comments. Just that most of the students, at least 3/4 of the students don't get the teacher cause she talks like a bullet train. I dislike and can get pissed when lessons are like this. Teacher talks so fast, student get nothing. Lesson = waste time. Irritating. Oh. and the long talks in the hall hurts my butt. Anyway, subject combinations are out and I'll be taking H2 maths chemistry econs and H1 geography. Hope I will do fine in these and survive my Jc life. *cross fingers* School dance was kinda fun. The steps are funny and kinda awkward. Especially the chip chip chip blow kiss part. -.- haha. But it was fun and entertaining seeing the seniors dancing. =)) Next week will be games orientation. Well, hope it will be for one entire week and may it be exciting. =DD

Okay... I am wondering which CCA i should join. Definately no more performing arts for me. Sports. Volleyball or tennis. Quite interested in both. But I don't know which one to take up. Well, if i take up volleyball, I will risk injuring my hand and that will be bad cause I'm learning piano and I don't want it to affect my playing. Sigh... how how how?!! Someone advise me please.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Shit. After typing a long post, It's gone. ARGH...bite bite.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Woah...
schooool's not bad. But the speeches are way too long and my butt hurts a lot. hah. There's a college dance tomorrow. My...wonder how it will be like...I hope I can survive my 2 years in JC. No retaining, and not getting kicked out of school. Keep my fingers crossed. haha. Hopefully I can get my first choice for the subject combinations. Maths H2, Chem H2, Econs H2, and Geog H1. Time to spend lots of money tomorrow...school uniforms and stuff! =(


I love you loads. MUACK.


I wanna hug Rachel!

Sunday, February 1, 2009




OH MY!
I don't wanna go school tomorrow! It scares me. =( It feels funny. argh..





I feel so empty inside. =(


330am and i"m still awake. =(
gotta wake up early tomorrow, i wonder how...
I wanna go home badly.