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Hey yo people, I'm Sien. 16th October's my special day. haha I LOVE MUSIC, and my freaking nice friends <3 I love him :)





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Words from Before It's Too Late by Goo Goo Dolls.

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

i dont know why.
i really dont know why.
i've been feeling very down lately.
sometimes, it really does hurts.
This is really difficult for me.
but i've got no choice.
nothing i can do to feel better.
i dont even know how to make myself feel better.
i just want exams to be over soon.
very soon.
i'm tired.
and i hope i'm not going to develop eyelid inflammatio again.

fuck. the show is fucking touching.
dont make me cry please.
T_T

Sunday, September 27, 2009

tears..
gonna be dry soon.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YwkuS9FlB7M
this song is so beautiful. melts my heart.

anyway, i dont know why, came back feeling damn sucky.
i felt so down. on the verge of...
i need some warmth.
i need to talk to someone.
damn.
promos and my mindset is slowly killing me from inside.
I'm sorry to everyone around me.
I'm sorry for being such an ass.
I'm sorry.

geog paper tomorrow.
how am i going to get through promos?
i really dont know.

Monday, September 21, 2009

so screwed for promos. damn damn damn damn damn.
studied at airport and amanda's place today.
saw so many srjcians at airport.
camwhored on the way back in the train.
i kicked alton's slippers far away. woohooo. 1 point for me. muahahha.
i still have so many things to complete. screw it.
just when i thought i am starting to understand econs, i realised i dont know so many things.
so again...
damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn.
and i cant find my gp notes! i only have government with me. crazy.
shit sien. shit you. shit you. you are so friggin screwed.
ttm.
is there any way out of this mess?
no?
FREAK


i feel so shit. damn shit. one more week to friggin' promos. fucking many things to cover. mad ass. crazy shit.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

FREAK. DAMN TIRING DAY.
Yesterday: school, sarawak meeting, home.
I was having dinner halfway, was finishing it. Until I saw something black...and it dont look like the curry spice at all. IT WAS AN EFFING COCKROACK NYMPH. DAMN IT. yeah. grossed out for a moment. then i went to get my money back. no way i'm gonna pay for that dinner man. and i got it back. muahahha. STUPID COCKROACH. I HATE COCKROACHES!

broke down once again
cause it's too much for me to contain
i dont think i can make it
but i really want to
dont know how to help myself

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

random.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

damn it. promos coming up real soon. sooner than anything.
this is crap man. and i haven finish my effing homeworks. truckloads of homework!
suck.suck.suck.
i think i will retain luh. fuck.
i will miss my friends like mad.
i dont wanna retain.
though i dont really mind if my basic's not good.


i wish i can hold you tight.
and tell you everything i wanted.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

i dont wanna go through promos unprepared.
i need time.
i need strength.
i need support.
i need help.
i need the assurance.
and most of all.
i need confidence.


i'm disappointed in you and myself.
we drifted.
and you dont really care.
though. to tell the truth.
i kinda miss you.
and the times.


damn it. after some time, the feeling came back to me again.
frustration, anger and more.
cried.
so what?
life still has to go on for me right? how sucky.
well...maybe not.
what i know for now it's that
i'm getting from bad to worse.
i'm screwing my life.
and life of people around me.
i'm so sorry.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

canoeing was quite fun. but i think i'm going to fail my course this sat. reason being i cant capsize and come out of the kayak the correct way, and I cant get up into the kayak. though i tried really hard. really! Once, i got back into the kayak, then capsized the other way and my leg was stuck in the kayak, and i was facing down. I tried to get my leg out, i vain. so i was stuck face down in the water. Luckily kelly called coach or i would drown man. thanks kelly! phew. I dont wanna go canoeing anymore on sat! i'm frightened by that experience man.
tuition was cancelled. ( blessing in disguise ) cause i had a bad headache after canoeing.
window shopping after dinner with sarawak mates. woah. it's awesome to go shopping with those 3 guys there. haha. fun. found booties but it cost $72. so expensive! =( in the end, we didnt buy them. zzzzz. now i'm home. and i feel like i'm still in the waters....

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

arghh. saw lollipop with this gf yesterday, zomg. haha.
I dont know what the hell i'm thinking. My bad.
hmmm. srgce. where should i go? lijiang? or sarawak?
i'll miss my sarawak team mates yo. ( if i really move over to lijiang grp )
zzzz. 2 weeks to promos. how am i going to finish all topics for promos?!!!
hell lots to cover yo!!

CHARMAINE DEAR. GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR PIANO EXAM TMR! YOU CAN DO IT! =)

Canoeing tmr, followed by tuition. shag day.


bro went back to US.
granny, uncle and aunt went back to jakarta.
now, I feel lost.
sad.

I wish i was thinner.
so i can take lots of nicer pictures with the rest?
=( i fuckin need to starve and lose lots of weight.
damn it.

anyway, 2 more weeks to promos.
dont know how i'm going to cope.
so much to cover. yet so little time.
i feel that i'm becoming more and more
stupid. stupid. stupid.
i'm getting slower and more retarded.

screw you sien. stupid.

oh. one more thing.
it's a miracle i passed my grade 7 piano?
i was quite prepared to fail.
i was indeed shocked when teacher told I passed.
hah.



one random post here:
I LOVE YOU UNCLE.
YOU'RE THE BEST UNCLE ANYONE CAN HAVE.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

i really miss you.
why and how did we end up like this?
=( well..i hope you're doing great anyway.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

dont know why...
i'm feeling all time low again.
shit.


Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

-Angel