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Camera
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To be a pro pianist and singer =D
To be promoted to J2
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To be a pro pianist and singer =D
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I thought all I needed was some rest...I guess I need to see the doctor soon. damn it. Now, I can't run, PE and train. damn it...
Anyway, I screwed up my maths lectures test and gp essay. I just cant do apgp questions! rawr! Oh. Rockfest audition was a flop too!
you must be glad about what you're doing to me
good job to you. for you've successfully hurt me.
just like the way you want it to. thanks a lot!
Anyway, I screwed up my maths lectures test and gp essay. I just cant do apgp questions! rawr! Oh. Rockfest audition was a flop too!
you must be glad about what you're doing to me
good job to you. for you've successfully hurt me.
just like the way you want it to. thanks a lot!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
US
love us. =) thanks for everything guys. you know what i mean...
I wanna let it all out.
I wanna know what you're thinking and what you feel.
I wanna let you know how I feel.
Where's the trust ?
I just feel like crying it out.
To make myself feel better.
But it just doesnt work.
I feel so bloody terrible and hurt.
This freaking sucks.
To the max.
Damn it.
I wanna know what you're thinking and what you feel.
I wanna let you know how I feel.
Where's the trust ?
I just feel like crying it out.
To make myself feel better.
But it just doesnt work.
I feel so bloody terrible and hurt.
This freaking sucks.
To the max.
Damn it.
Damn it! I was signing up for global classroom experience halfway and then it closes. deadline: 1159 pm. damn it man.....argh...I was hesitating where to go...so yeah.. Many things happened in these short period of time and many activities taking place too.
Monday: captains ball
Tuesday: captains ball
Wednesday: Tennis training
Thurs: consultations
Fri: Floorball, Tennis training /empiring.
My team won the two captains ball matches on monday.Won the first match on tuesday and lost the next one. But great effort guys! Great job by Roti John, Wen Bin, Jia hao, Jason Ng, Denyse, Vanessa, Sherilyn, Lewis, Serene! Thanks for helping! I really appreciate it. Without you guys, my team would have to drop out from the competition. so. thanks a lot!
Hectic life. Screwed up life. Boring life. Sad life. I'm lacking behind in my studies ( econs, chem, maths), my relationship is like wth, many problems. stupid. Which means, I need to study mug study mug to catch up and ignore about 'it'. Anyway, now my leg and back is hurting. I limp when I walk and I can't run. cant train properly. shyt. me needs lots of rest this weekend. Me needs to practise piano lots. sigh..=((. PW question is out. Time to do PW.
I thought it was all okay now. But you proved me wrong. I really dont know what to do anymore. You suit yourself damn it. All your broken promises.
tired. very tired. off to my dreamland!
Monday: captains ball
Tuesday: captains ball
Wednesday: Tennis training
Thurs: consultations
Fri: Floorball, Tennis training /empiring.
My team won the two captains ball matches on monday.Won the first match on tuesday and lost the next one. But great effort guys! Great job by Roti John, Wen Bin, Jia hao, Jason Ng, Denyse, Vanessa, Sherilyn, Lewis, Serene! Thanks for helping! I really appreciate it. Without you guys, my team would have to drop out from the competition. so. thanks a lot!
Hectic life. Screwed up life. Boring life. Sad life. I'm lacking behind in my studies ( econs, chem, maths), my relationship is like wth, many problems. stupid. Which means, I need to study mug study mug to catch up and ignore about 'it'. Anyway, now my leg and back is hurting. I limp when I walk and I can't run. cant train properly. shyt. me needs lots of rest this weekend. Me needs to practise piano lots. sigh..=((. PW question is out. Time to do PW.
I thought it was all okay now. But you proved me wrong. I really dont know what to do anymore. You suit yourself damn it. All your broken promises.
tired. very tired. off to my dreamland!
Friday, March 20, 2009
Met up with bff at suntec for lunch =) walked around, went to her house, and next to east coast park! woohoo. finally DDRed again after so long and we took the 'pirate ship'. haha. today's fun.
But. I have yet to start on my homework, revision and clearing up my room...so shyt. hah. gotta hurry to complete them, cause I'm already lagging far far behind my classmates. So..swimming and badminton tomorrow. followed by studying. muahaha. (I hope I wont be making 'air shots')
okay. I admit I am unreasonable. I just need some time. sorry. rawr.
But. I have yet to start on my homework, revision and clearing up my room...so shyt. hah. gotta hurry to complete them, cause I'm already lagging far far behind my classmates. So..swimming and badminton tomorrow. followed by studying. muahaha. (I hope I wont be making 'air shots')
okay. I admit I am unreasonable. I just need some time. sorry. rawr.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
mixed emotions.
I just wish none of it happened.
I just wish I can drown all my sorrows.
Drinking tmr. to drown it all.
I just wish none of it happened.
I just wish I can drown all my sorrows.
Drinking tmr. to drown it all.
I'm sorry. I got two options and I've decided to choose the first one. so goodbye. forget about everything. it doesnt matter. it's dead. I'm dead. I'll just be more careful next time.
I am such a freaking substitute/entertainer of yours. Ain't I?
I am just one of them to you. Ain't I?
Now you've found something new. 'great!'
I guess you just dont care.
you know I feel hurt? no you dont!
You think I dont care dont you? but You're wrong.
I'm starting to wonder if you meant what you said, What you promised, What you assured me.
or is it just another something that you say for the sake of saying it. If you know that I'm referring to you. would you bother to text/call me to clear this up?
I just don't get why I bother to hold on to this?! f man. I am pissed at myself and at this whole thing. it was a mistake right from the start. dont you think so? arghhhhhh. if only I'm at the beach now.
I am just one of them to you. Ain't I?
Now you've found something new. 'great!'
I guess you just dont care.
you know I feel hurt? no you dont!
You think I dont care dont you? but You're wrong.
I'm starting to wonder if you meant what you said, What you promised, What you assured me.
or is it just another something that you say for the sake of saying it. If you know that I'm referring to you. would you bother to text/call me to clear this up?
I just don't get why I bother to hold on to this?! f man. I am pissed at myself and at this whole thing. it was a mistake right from the start. dont you think so? arghhhhhh. if only I'm at the beach now.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I know things are getting different now
But I hope we'll treasure the times we had together
I wanna let you know something
and that is
I'll miss you..
But I hope we'll treasure the times we had together
I wanna let you know something
and that is
I'll miss you..
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Bro: where are you? It's been long since we talked. I got so much to say. and I really miss you...
anyway, things are....like that. I wont bother to do anything about it anymore. I am very tired. In the end, it'll still turn out the way I dont want it to be. So why waste my time right? I am really naive and foolish. I trust people too easily and I get hurt in the end. wth. My bad, but I cant seem to change it. I guess some things in life is just like a hi-bye thing. nothing more. nothing to get reminded and upset of. I know it's hard but life still have to go on. It's gonna be tough for me but I'll try to face it as if nothing's bothering me.
I did trust you in the beginning, but slowly, I have my doubts.
I question myself this: will you just be another one of them?
anyway, things are....like that. I wont bother to do anything about it anymore. I am very tired. In the end, it'll still turn out the way I dont want it to be. So why waste my time right? I am really naive and foolish. I trust people too easily and I get hurt in the end. wth. My bad, but I cant seem to change it. I guess some things in life is just like a hi-bye thing. nothing more. nothing to get reminded and upset of. I know it's hard but life still have to go on. It's gonna be tough for me but I'll try to face it as if nothing's bothering me.
I did trust you in the beginning, but slowly, I have my doubts.
I question myself this: will you just be another one of them?
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I dropped my laptop!!!!! omg.
now there's a crack at the side of my laptop. =(
now there's a crack at the side of my laptop. =(
I'm disappointed in you.
I am seriously the biggest loser ever.
finally drowned my sorrows under the stars. =)
and I managed to stay conscious.
and I managed to stay conscious.
I'm feeling better now. Maybe I was thinking too much. Anyway, I spent so much today =(. and I mean A LOT. oh!! I got my ipod finally! sadly, I dont really know how to transfer my songs in properly. how pathetic is that? haha. Those who are reading this will laugh at me, this I know...So. I guess it's time for me to start saving up now.
I hope everything will go back to where it used to be.
I hope everything will go back to where it used to be.
Friday, March 13, 2009
I think I just messed up this entire friendship
and I'm on the way of losing a great friend.
and I'm on the way of losing a great friend.
maybe I should go back to the last time me.
the quieter me.
to avoid .......
the quieter me.
to avoid .......
Thursday, March 12, 2009
what i am suppose to do now?
My first tear rolled down my cheeks today.
because of you.
I'm in deep shit.
This freaking mess.
I hate it.
F.
My first tear rolled down my cheeks today.
because of you.
I'm in deep shit.
This freaking mess.
I hate it.
F.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
why does it happen to me every single time?!
freak man.
I rather everything's the same like how it used to be.
But I know it just wont.
Is the life i love caving in?
freak man.
I rather everything's the same like how it used to be.
But I know it just wont.
Is the life i love caving in?
okay! fine! I am in self-denial alright. I am not okay in actual fact. but there's nothing that i can do to make myself feel better. I just feel like cutting... throwing things/screaming. I was kinda mad today I threw my wallet onto the floor far away. If only I got a dart!!! ARGHHHH.
even though it dont always come easy....
even though it dont always come easy....
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
I shouldn't be bothered by it anyway.
I'm 'dead' long time ago. =)
Just need to get used to it.
I will.
Soon.
I've finally learnt to say
whatever will be will be.
I'm 'dead' long time ago. =)
Just need to get used to it.
I will.
Soon.
I've finally learnt to say
whatever will be will be.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
stupid!!!
freak man. What happened to my blog? So freaking freaking ugly now. *screams*
I guess I'm out of your dictionary no matter how hard I try.
I know I should just give up but it just ain't easy.
I know I should just give up but it just ain't easy.
I dont know how to say it.
I dont know what to do.
I'm happy but at the same time, not that happy.
argh.
I dont know what to do.
I'm happy but at the same time, not that happy.
argh.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
=(. My voice kinda changed. I sound more coarse and airy. Can't sing well now. =(
Like I'm losing my voice....
Like I'm losing my voice....
Today= YAY DAY. collected my shoes finally, got my locker. left shoes in locker. talked to people. dined with stephanie and denyse. A level results for friends and they're happy with their results and so I'm all smiles too. =D Tennis after that was....good. but the sun was scorching. heh. random uh.
You've got me hypnotized.
You've got me hypnotized.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Yay! I survived tennis pt yesterday and pe today. I'm alive. =) and I finished writing my song today....the last one was....long loooong time ago. Heh. I guess I'm having too much 'fun' in school, my studies are all going downhill and I'm lagging behind the others. Bad Bad Sien!! Anyone wants to study with me during the weekends? SOMEONE? hee.. Oh..I'm so freaking dead cause I haven't been practising my piano or learn my scales yet and I'm going to take exam this year? not good.
I DO NOT FEEL LIKE TALKING TO YOU. GO AWAY!!
I DO NOT FEEL LIKE TALKING TO YOU. GO AWAY!!
Tell Me What To Do
Everytime I think of you
I often find myself, smiling (whoa)
I know I can't be with you
So I'll just love you, secretly
In my heart
Though I wanna tell you how I feel
deep inside me
I can't
I'm afraid of your rejection
Boy, tell me what to do
I'm so lost
Boy, tell me what to do
To make this crush go away
Cause It's hurting me so much
Like a knife into my heart
Tell me what to do
Tell me what to do
Everytime I think of you
I often find myself, singing,
this song for you
I know I can't tell you how I feel
So I'm writing this down, hoping
You'll notice me
When I see you near,
I get so nervous, I can't breathe
I can't
I'm afraid you'll catch me looking
Boy, tell me what to do
I'm so lost
Boy, tell me what to do
To make this crush go away
Cause it's hurting me so much
Like a knife into my heart
Tell me what to do
Tell me what to do
I love you.
(copyright)
Everytime I think of you
I often find myself, smiling (whoa)
I know I can't be with you
So I'll just love you, secretly
In my heart
Though I wanna tell you how I feel
deep inside me
I can't
I'm afraid of your rejection
Boy, tell me what to do
I'm so lost
Boy, tell me what to do
To make this crush go away
Cause It's hurting me so much
Like a knife into my heart
Tell me what to do
Tell me what to do
Everytime I think of you
I often find myself, singing,
this song for you
I know I can't tell you how I feel
So I'm writing this down, hoping
You'll notice me
When I see you near,
I get so nervous, I can't breathe
I can't
I'm afraid you'll catch me looking
Boy, tell me what to do
I'm so lost
Boy, tell me what to do
To make this crush go away
Cause it's hurting me so much
Like a knife into my heart
Tell me what to do
Tell me what to do
I love you.
(copyright)
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