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Hey yo people, I'm Sien. 16th October's my special day. haha I LOVE MUSIC, and my freaking nice friends <3 I love him :)





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Thursday, July 29, 2010

my goodness. I hate sinus!! So annoying like bitch. :s
my nose itches :( oh plus. I really dislike gp and geog
this year. These two subjects really suck man. Dont know
what the lecturer is teaching these days. We arent able to
follow the lecture book...zzzzzzzz. Everthing they teach is
summarized and we are to read up eveeything else on our
own.....roarrrrrrrr. It really makes me mad when i cant
comprehend what the lecturer is teaching me! :(

and on a sad side note, i cant recall the song that i
composed the other day:( cause i didnt write it down
so sad right...:((( boohooo! :((((((((

i'm looking forward to the end of the day!
I'm gonna hate fri and sat this week! :/

Monday, July 26, 2010

FUCK!!!! :( i really am very sad now. I thought i put in effort...
But i guess nothing changed. Why why why?? I really put in
a lot of effort this time. Why didnt the result show?? Why why why?
Great now my confidence level went down again. Just when i
slowly got it back, things have to happen and step on it. Bringing me down.
To ground zero. :((( what to do? What to do? I dont want it to be
like that! Why cant i be just like every other girl? They do it like,
it's so simple? I put it effort but it's still the same? Whyyyyyy.
Fuck my life. Like seriously. Fuck it.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

i dislike it when it rains at night.
When it's accompanied by flashing lightnings.
And roaring thunders.
Cause i feel scared staying and sleeping in my bedroom.
All alone :(

i feel so uneasy and my heart's racing now. :(((
it's funny how one small little thing can affect my mood.
So drastically.
I'm emo-ing now. Siannnnnn.

Friday, July 23, 2010

why do i feel so empty at times?
Why do i feel hurt?
Why do i feel like i'm not loved?
Why do i complain so much about my life,
when my life is already so much better off than others?
Where do i go from here?
How can i help myself to move on?
How do i get out from this feeling i have?

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

dont know why i've been so cranky these few days..
And i feel so exhausted even though i dont do much work.
This is really bad...a month has passed and i'm still not focused yet..
I am trying..it's really hard. Semester 2's work is putting quite
a bit of pressure on me. Before you manage to finish one pile,
another pile hits you. And this is. Annoying. Really.
Therefore, every single day, you're just rushing to finish up
your work. Life of a jc student? ....hmmmm no life. No?

I've been in an irritable mood. With extreme mood changes.
Seldom just right. It's either too high, or low. Weird huh?
Come on sien!! Please get back on track! I have to make it work.
I shall make sure i am not spending another year for nothing,
i can do it.!! I think? Haha.i have to right?

Anyway, seriously, i got no idea how i'm gonna run 15km
for willrun. Someone convince me i can do that again please??


Sayangku..

Sunday, July 18, 2010

i've tried to fix it. hopefully things will turn for the better.
for you, me and everyone.
i realised so many people around me are facing problems.
i gave them advices and encouragements, so hopefully, it
will at least help them a little. and i wish things will be better
for them. As for me, i'm uncertain of how things would go..
i'm not sure how to handle it too. should i talk it out, or should
i just leave things as it this and let time heal everything?
i hope i didnt make things worse for both you and me plus i'm
sorry to have hurt you. I'm really really sorry.

I have been quite down these past few days..
sometimes i go really high, and sometimes i become so down..
makes me feel so terrible and painful at times.
well, luckily, on the positive side, i still have friends that i can
count on. ong yong da :) thank you so much bro! you really brightened
up my day today when i was so upset! thank you for everything.
love you! :))

Monday, July 12, 2010

freakkkkk. I've lost focus in school now :(
everything seem to be piling up...
but I shall do my best to clear all of them.
and conquer stupid peanut work.
i will do well for promos!
i shall concentrate and all focus on just 3 things.
studies, tennis, piano.
=DD



anyway, I just wanna say that, I'm so thankful,
to have good friends like jerry and yong da.
really. though you all can be quite mean (act only)
haha. i can sense the care you all have for me. teehee.
I love you guys. will miss yong da when he graduates!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

fuggg.