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Sunday, May 17, 2009
FUCKED UP.
I feel damn fucked up.
Yesterday was seriously the worst day ever! What the hell was I thinking damn it? I must be out of my mind to do what I told myself I wont do. FREAK SHIT. Why did I do it? I'm so ambarrassed of myself! I'm angry with myself. I'm very upset with myself. I find myself Very Very stupid. Argh. I wish I was playing tennis now. Then I can let all my frustrations out. I will hit the ball real hard. With all my might. With all the strength I have. Till I'm drained. Till I fall.
Hung up the phone and I did tear and cry a lil. It's so painful when you feel like crying but you just cant. Is it a sign for something? I don't know. But it bothers me a lot. How am I going to face it man? fuck. I ruined everything. I got no 'face' now. It took me so long to decide if I should do it. It took great amount of courage to do it. Great. Once again. I am crushed. I think I just have to get used to it. This crushed feeling. So next time I wont get hurt again. =)
Thanks to those who were there to cheer me up when you see me upset. Really appreciate all the small little things you all do.I'm lucky to have good friends like all of you. Well, after so long, I finally get to drown all my sorrows again. And I was still so clear-headed after that. whoa.
Where's the trust I thought I had in you?
Everything's not gonna be the same anymore.
Ain't it?
Forget it. Let it go.
I'm just being a fool...
Yesterday was seriously the worst day ever! What the hell was I thinking damn it? I must be out of my mind to do what I told myself I wont do. FREAK SHIT. Why did I do it? I'm so ambarrassed of myself! I'm angry with myself. I'm very upset with myself. I find myself Very Very stupid. Argh. I wish I was playing tennis now. Then I can let all my frustrations out. I will hit the ball real hard. With all my might. With all the strength I have. Till I'm drained. Till I fall.
Hung up the phone and I did tear and cry a lil. It's so painful when you feel like crying but you just cant. Is it a sign for something? I don't know. But it bothers me a lot. How am I going to face it man? fuck. I ruined everything. I got no 'face' now. It took me so long to decide if I should do it. It took great amount of courage to do it. Great. Once again. I am crushed. I think I just have to get used to it. This crushed feeling. So next time I wont get hurt again. =)
Thanks to those who were there to cheer me up when you see me upset. Really appreciate all the small little things you all do.I'm lucky to have good friends like all of you. Well, after so long, I finally get to drown all my sorrows again. And I was still so clear-headed after that. whoa.
Where's the trust I thought I had in you?
Everything's not gonna be the same anymore.
Ain't it?
Forget it. Let it go.
I'm just being a fool...