RAWR. didnt do well for Os... that's for not studying hard. Now, i can get myself to no where good...no where i want to go. Am really disappointed...but he told me this: Ultimately it's not the JC that determines your A levels result. It's you. So i can put you in RJC but you dont study, you will still not do well in A levels. Thanks a lot, i really appreciate it. It makes sense to me and it's kinda true isnt it? Well F I'm sorry to let you down again and again and again. Even though you told me to concentrate on my studies, and dont let some things which are beyond my control affect me. The thing is, i didnt listen to your advice to study hard, and I still went out to play and movies and didnt study hard enough. In fact, I didnt study hard for these 3 years. Once again, I wont be able to do what i promised you, just like what happened 4 years ago. I'm really sorry. I will work hard in JC and make sure I can get into Uni. I'm really sorry. Well, if you're not as bright as others, you will just have to work extra hard. When they play, you'll need to study...I hope i can survive my tough JC life and make it to U. Anyway, I need to change a lot of things about myself. To be more and i really mean it, more independent, start learning to do things on my own, be more hardworking and more sensible, and stop doing things that I'll regret, cause I already regret many things that I've done.

Well...I just finished clearing all those disgusting stuff and I'm so tired and look haggard now. I swear I'll never do that again. Anyway, I still need to pack my room and make space for new books and all. I need a room makeover! All by myself. How's that!

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